"& the album begins with a song of rebellion"

[quote by Say Anything.]

Say Anything is a great punk band. Don't ever listen to them if you want to follow Jesus 101%.

blogging is great.
it is an outlet for thoughts that we would never dare say aloud to another person.
therefore, we write them out for the entire world to read.
daring. hypocritical. fantastic.
read mine if you dare.

living in northern ireland is lovely. i've gained friends, wisdom, & weight since my brisk move in in september. so far, however, my experience has lacked one important thing: community. i have stellar friends & plenty of aquaintances. but the one thing i've missed most is being able to call up an old friend, who will call up another old friend, who will call up another old friend, & then have a gathering of 20 or so old friends. homesickness? maybe. but i think it is more than that as well. there's a longing inside me that is anxious to share my thoughts with someone other than a mentor. my journal knows as much about me as i do; my best friends at home know even more than that. i guess that's why this blog finds me here. even if only one person reads it, i'm satisfied to know that i've shared my thoughts with someone other than myself- lonliness can only be disguised for so long.

moving on.
if prayer is merely a conversation with God, why is it so difficult?
raise your hand if you're like me & you can't pray.

selfishness sucks dry the strength of selflessness.
& so my prayer is the 51st psalm.